Ok so im rewriting today's entry over because well Laura told me i was slacking in my posts lately...and well.. I LOVE LAURA TRZCINSKI BECAUSE SHE'S JUST WELL UH MY FAVORITE PERSON IN THE WORLD EVEN THOUGH I CALLED HER A STUPID WHORE WHEN SHE SAID I WAS RUDE FOR WRITING THAT STUFF ABOUT WILL
haha ...

laurat314: I LOVE YOU LAUREN!
--- See she loves me...

So now that i have my license i guess my " friends" can use me.. i love it.. i mean i absolutly love being ditched.. no really..and i love being hurt...

So i caught up with an old friend lately... Him and I have been through A LOT OF CRAP...no seriously... We swore up and down we hated each other and now im his DDD....his drunk designated driver.... He's really a great guy.. and he's changed a lot... id say..Anyways. im talking about Kevin Smith... hes cool.. you should meet him.

So.. Im trying to think of a topic to talk about..I rented the Real Cancun earlier today... It was very interesting.. I felt so bad for the Alan kid.. good movie you should see it..

So well Im gonna go to bed because Ive got practice at 8 so leave some comments and tell me what to write about

Laura informed me about 5 minutes ago that it is time for me to post again... So i am... Because well.. i love that wilson hall kid..

So yesterday I did absolutly nothing.. Once again another boring summer... I got up late.. did yogo.. * very cool* then cleaned up the house and waited to go to my game...We won of course... Chris was there so afterwards we went and ate then came back to my house and swam and went to see Amer...

My computer has been so totally gay lately.. Ive wanted to Kill it so many times..I think I have a virus or something...

Tomorrow I get my license * knock on wood*.. I better at least.. Ive already too many plans...I think Ill pass.. Its not that hard.. I mean i can parallel park like noone you've ever seen before.. and Can do everything else PERFECT...

Morgan and Steph are at Church Camp.. I miss them. they need to come home..

Rememeber how i told you about Will and I not talking ONCE AGAIN... well ... i figured out...i just don’t care anymore. some people suck and will suck forever, no matter what.  i give up.

Sometimes giving up isn’t always a bad thing…when you put so much energy into something and nothing comes of it…it is useless.  USELESS I TELL YOU!  i don’t know what else there is for me to do, besides to just say…”fuck it.”  so fuck it.  fuck it all.

Don’t take this the wrong way.  i am not mad, oh no.  i am the happiest person ever right now because well, i just don’t care anymore.  i don’t care if someone doesn’t like me, i don’t care what someone thinks of me, because i know who i am better than anyone else.  so HA

So im basically just rambling.. As soon as i think of something intellectual to say.. Ill post once again...

So... thought id write in here as im waiting for my mother.... i have to go to basketball

I get my license thursday.. I think my life will be easier.. Im praying it will be. I mean not only  will my friendships be better.. but my realtionship as well...

So i was reading Katherine's xanga earlier about her feelings for doug... And I think its so cool that they're together and have been for basically a year... I remember the day he asked her out.... I was there .. Those were the good days... When it was the pink triangle...and the gang bang... I miss those days a lot...

So heres a funny story... My mother and I were in Belks getting some much needed make up... and the woman was like " you are one of the most prettiest girls ive seen in awhile... you're just so natural" .... Honestly i didnt know how to take this because for one.. I had on NO MAKEUP.. so by natural does she mean "you look like a wilderbeast woman who needs some makeup badly and im just being nice by saying ur pretty so you will buy the makeup and leave?" or did she really mean it?.. I dont know.. and I didnt really care till my mom brought it up on the car ride home... Shes a ditz.. whatever you do.. Dont talk to my mother.. you seriously drop a few intellectual points when you try to carry on a conversation with her. For Instance.. My mother and I had a phone tag convo for about 30 minutes of her miscountng the days for my license.. its 181 days from the next day you get ur permit... So I got my permit Dec. 19... The 20th would be the first day... Well 181 days from that is June 17th... Well my mother and her OH so brilliantancy was 101% sure that 181 days was June 18th... So i had to actually count the days over the phone to her.. and when i got the Feb,... She goes " OH.. so this year is a leap year?" i was like no mom we just have the 29th in there for looks... and she goes... "lauren.. are you being serious?".... Point taken... my mother is an idiot.

So..I know this is gross.. but i havent purged at all today... I feel very disgusting.. Parker and I had a convo last night about the different types of bulimia... Ones that most people dont even know about... And i told her about the 2 main "bullimias" most people have it... and did you know... that Most teenagers who say they have it... actually dont... they THINK they do because they throw up a couple of times after they eat.. Well thats not exactly what bulimia is.. Bulimia is a mental thing. You can be a nonpurging Bulimic or a purging bulimic... A non purging bulimic is much like an anorexic... They dont eat for long periods and then all of a sudden eat a lot.. also know as binging.. A Purging bulimic binges a lot.. and then either throws up or uses a laxative... So there are many different types of Bulimics and one  way you can tell if someone is a bulimic... is they have major mood swings.. not just PMS type mood swings.. the kind where one just sits and cries for long periods of time.. or just lashes out on someone for no reason.. or is REALLY hyper for a good bit of time... So i dont know why im telling you this..Maybe cus im Bored...

So.. Got in another fight with Will last night.. Nothing new huh? I hate fighting with him.. but he just really made me mad... Dont even want to get into that...

My Morgan left me today to go to Camp.. Im gonna miss her..  I swear i love those Larkins kids... Morgan's 19 year old sister, Steph.. is my other best friend... Steph and I played ball together.. We won a state championship together.. She was my pitcher and i was her " little catcher"... We were/ are really close... She didnt care how old i was... She still treated me like one of her friends.. and because of that i think thats why I cant relate to some of my friends now... A lot of things seem childish...

Anyway.. I got my hair cut.. Chris' mom cut it.. It looks good i think.. Shorter... better?

xoxo

Man... Im so burnt.. I was outside by the pool ALL DAY yesterday...

I havent talked to Ali in awhile.. I miss her.. I love you SO MUCH haha

So Chris andI had a wrestling match last night.. and of course.. I WON.. but anways.. it hurt so bad because im burned and he would like hit the red spots .. i thought i was going to cry..

Well i dont have much to say.. Ill post later

Ok so today was a happy day. I wasn't sad at all today. It started off great by Chris wakin me up by jumpin on me over and over again sayin " RISE AND SHINE" then i went to basketball and worked with Coach Mike then came home and layed out by the pool .. Then chris called and said him and Kevin were coming so I had to get ready.. So i got ready and we went and got Krista * the love of my life* then went to chris' then to see shrek 2.. which is a very good movie ... then went to eat then omg the highlight of my life happened...

So we turned on Kolb rd to take Krista home... and Chris and Kevin were " freestyling" and all of a sudden chris yelled " nigga nigga nigga nigga nigga nigga nigga nigga" and then Kevin yells into a big airfone thing " NIGGA" Well we THOUGHT chris' brother was in front of us... so we couldnt figure out why the car in front of us had stopped well then we realized it wasnt chris' brother but a car full of black people. So the car keeps goin real slow and we turn down kristas street and kinda go slow to see if the car turned around to follow us.. and so we get to the end of the rd... and the car turns down kristas street and we turned left on the 2nd street and they turn right on the 1st street so we circle around to the 1st right street and we look and the car is still on the left street lookin for us so we gas it to get back on the main road and the car turns around and follows us again.. and so we go thru all these back roads tryin to lose them.. and FINALLY.. we did.. it was so scary... i wanted to cry...

Anyways... I only had 990 calories...Im thinkin im only gonna intake maybe 1200 calories a day.. .I mean.. Thats like a way lot but with my ED .. there wont be hardly any when im done.. So anyway.. im startin a new xanga.. just for my ED... one that i can write about w/e i want to write about...

"Do not be misled, Bad company corrupts Good character."
1 Corinthians 15:33